Reallydiditnow

1. I know it's strange and it's hard to explain. The best way I can put it is that there are trans women who get all kinds of surgeries/hormones/treatments but don't go "all the way" and get SRS. These women are called non-op. Some don't get it done because of health or financial reasons, but some refuse SRS because they want to keep their penis. I should have just been a non-op but I didn't have all that much experience with vaginas and I had surgery done while I was getting my breast implants done. I felt really bad about my breasts before. I feel the same as a non-op woman who got her penis smashed in a car accident or something.

2. Well, my long time girlfriend is ok with it now. If we broke up or she died or whatever though, other women would have to take me as I am. If they don't like it and I have to remain single for a longer time or forever, well, that's a sacrifice I'm willing to make.

I didn't know as much as I do now, but I did know about phalloplasty.

No, 6 inches was the radius. ;)

of course 6 inches circumference. 6 inches diameter isn't that like bigger than a piston in a car engine? rofl.

It was after my initial SRS I discovered I liked having a penis better.

I felt unhappy "being a boy" my whole life. For as long as I can remember. I had long hair growing up and couldn't bear being treated as a boy/young man. I identified more with girls, but I was more of a socially isolated kid who spent her childhood and young adulthood playing video games or in front of a TV screen. This was by choice, because again I couldn't stand being treated as a guy.