I know that just because you have PTSD that it doesn't make you an expert, but I was hoping you'd have some insight. I've had PTSD like symptoms since I was a kid, but I can't think of what could have cause it. I've had therapists confirm that some of the symptoms I have, such as heightened startle reaction, and hyper awareness, for example I can't stand someone standing behind me, it makes my skin crawl and if they move suddenly or make a noise I have to restrain myself from punching them in the face. I also absolutely HATE going through walmart cashier lines without someone with me, it's like there's too many people, too much stimulus, etc, and I feel like I can't trust any one there and I don't have enough eyes to keep an eye on all of them so I feel like I'm slowly going insane until I check out and get the fuck into my car. I also have a hard time being social because I don't trust people, other times I'm just socially awkward, other times I'm just flat out paranoid. If I do have PTSD I want some help dealing with this, partially because I work at a call center and every day people walk behind my desk and tap the back of my chair which makes me jump out of my skin, gasp, and then I know only have to restrain myself from punching a coworker but also explain to the customer what just happened. The reason why I haven't been diagnosed yet, is simply because I don't know why I'm like this. All I know is I can't remember jack shit from my child hood and these psychologists just sit there and say "try and remember" but I can't even remember what kind of cake I've had each birthday since I was 7. I barely even remember having birthdays, just the occasional new toy that showed up around that time. Now to the question, What the hell can I do? If the 2 or 3 therapists I've seen couldn't help me, then who?
Tl;dr, I've been experience PTSD like symptoms since childhood, but can't remember what could have caused them because the majority of my childhood is a blank so I haven't been officially diagnosed. Any help?
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I know that just because you have PTSD that it doesn't make you an expert, but I was hoping you'd have some insight. I've had PTSD like symptoms since I was a kid, but I can't think of what could have cause it. I've had therapists confirm that some of the symptoms I have, such as heightened startle reaction, and hyper awareness, for example I can't stand someone standing behind me, it makes my skin crawl and if they move suddenly or make a noise I have to restrain myself from punching them in the face. I also absolutely HATE going through walmart cashier lines without someone with me, it's like there's too many people, too much stimulus, etc, and I feel like I can't trust any one there and I don't have enough eyes to keep an eye on all of them so I feel like I'm slowly going insane until I check out and get the fuck into my car. I also have a hard time being social because I don't trust people, other times I'm just socially awkward, other times I'm just flat out paranoid. If I do have PTSD I want some help dealing with this, partially because I work at a call center and every day people walk behind my desk and tap the back of my chair which makes me jump out of my skin, gasp, and then I know only have to restrain myself from punching a coworker but also explain to the customer what just happened. The reason why I haven't been diagnosed yet, is simply because I don't know why I'm like this. All I know is I can't remember jack shit from my child hood and these psychologists just sit there and say "try and remember" but I can't even remember what kind of cake I've had each birthday since I was 7. I barely even remember having birthdays, just the occasional new toy that showed up around that time. Now to the question, What the hell can I do? If the 2 or 3 therapists I've seen couldn't help me, then who?
Tl;dr, I've been experience PTSD like symptoms since childhood, but can't remember what could have caused them because the majority of my childhood is a blank so I haven't been officially diagnosed. Any help?
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