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I am about to start week two of my bilateral ECT treatment for my treatment resistant bipolar 1. I haven't been this happy in years. I am having a lot of short term memory loss, but that is to be expected, and really not causing any issues. I've tried over 30 medications, and so far this is the only thing that has worked. I am so so so happy to be doing it. I don't feel it is causing any brain damage. Ya know what was going to cause brain damage? The gun I was going to use to take my own life.. that would have caused damage.

You're a good man.

Honestly, when I read the story it didn't add up for me either.. It seems to fast, like there isn't enough time for the events to take place. You would have had to pre-decide that you wanted to get out of the chair to pour the gas on you.. which seems like a long thing to plan for a 2 year old.

On a weird side tangent, when I was 8(ish?) my brother and I were at a construction site playing, while my Mom talked to the construction workers(working on our house). We got all muddy, and didn't want to get in trouble. So we found this milk jug that we thought was filled with water and poured it all over ourselves, to wash the mud off. Turns out it was gasoline. When we got in the car my Mom freaked out when she smelled it. Kids probably shouldn't play at construction sites..

Your answer to 5, I've often felt that way about the crappy things that have happened in my life. It's like.. it would be nice if they didn't happen, but who would you be. Would you like the you that you would be. You seem like a nice genuine guy and you have a beautiful family. I'm glad you are you, and I wish the best for you and yours :) (I say this of course, not implying that I don't wish I could change what happened to you, just that.. I'm happy things turned out well)

Ah, ya my brothers play Pathfinder, but I haven't yet started. (Never got to play DnD either when they played it >< Something about not wanting to play with their little sister. Though, I used to make character sheets for fun XD(this was a long time ago, they would let me play now))

Hey! My 5 brothers just went to Gencon too! I wasn't able because of money, but they brought me back swag. Did you get a Catan sheep?

I'm so glad you have such a great support system. The work one especially is awesome/surprising. When my Mom got sick her job pretty immediately fired her. I wish you the best. I know it doesn't have a good prognosis, but.. I hope it changes.. Good luck with the brain radiation!!