brandonopolis

Sorry you had to go through that. My dad was murdered when I was 22 and I'm almost 26 now, and I'm still putting my life back together. Thankfully, I didn't witness it, so I can only imagine what it was like for you. STAY STRONG!

Thanks :) It does get easier, but never goes completely away. My dad had a terrible life, so when I was told he was found dead at his apartment, I was actually relieved. No more suffering for him. Then I found out it was murder and that made it harder to cope with/understand. Then I felt guilty for quite awhile because I was relieved when I first heard he died. I was sad of course, but I knew he was in a better place.

It's good to see you can maintain a positive attitude after going through this. I know, for me, the first year was incredibly hard. I quit my job, stopped playing guitar (normally played about 6 hours/day) drank every chance I had (and I was 22, so it was nearly every day), did drugs, OD'd, which led to almost getting arrested, but my mom and sister refused to press charges. Wound up going to counseling for probably 6-8 months, put on meds (which I'm off now), etc... etc...

Definitely not the best part of my life, but it IS a part of my life and I can now look back on what happened and what I did, and try to learn from it.