coolerthanyuz

I'm glad you're suffering, at least. I was molested from age four-eight by multiple people and family. It's messed me up mentally, to say the least. Everyone involved is living great lives and people act like it's never happened. No one talk about it and neither have I since I'm trying to move on. I can't change anyone's opinion because no one wants to deal with confrontation. No one has ever apologized to me. I'm glad you are trying to make amends. That says a lot. Its come to a point for me that I am going to move far way from my family, cut ties, all that. If no one has the balls to apologize, if and when they do apologize, it means nothing to me anymore. I suffered all my life. Its nice to see someone suffer with me.

I'm not sure. Its been 20 years. By now I have no interest in peace between those who've done this to me. Its obvious they can care less. I've decided to stop associating with my family who has done nothing to make things right. They'd rather preserve their relationship with one another than to make things right. The only person who had done anything was my mother and everyone in my family called her a liar and troublemaker. She's dead now and everyone else is dead to me. As an adult, I can make that choice to disassociate myself with them. Its my only peace.

I asked my dentist about whitening my teeth and she told me my teeth looked perfectly natural. That made me feel a bit better.

Ha...wow. My family has done the exact same thing. Whenever I brought it up I was told to get over it...

I've had no support throughout my life. I had a lot of trouble coping by myself as a kid and I did a lot of sadistic things. When I became I teenager I was still being pretty sadistic and I also became self-destructive. I tried committing suicide when I was 18 by overdose. Didn't take enough pills but had this awesome trip into "space". I thought I was dead but I woke up in the hospital. Then was put into a mental hospital on suicide watch. I wasn't able to purchase a gun until I was 26. When I hit 21 my mind flipped because of circumstantial things. I had to put that part of me aside and get serious. As a way of coping, I have been slowly weeding out people in my life. Eventually I don't want to have anything to do with my family. Soon!