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Didnt your heart rate spike?

What about you BP? Was there no physiological response to the pain that was noticeable to the Doctors?

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Man i cried everywhere, doing the dishes * wave of panic * <cry uncontrollably>, on the computer googling (usually about Cancer at that time) cry, i once walked out my front door and saw flowers and cried, i thought, i would never see things like that again.

I live by this quote by Paul Bowles from The Sheltering Sky

“Because we don't know when we will die, we get to think of life as an inexhaustible well. Yet everything happens only a certain number of times, and a very small number really. How many more times will you remember a certain afternoon of your childhood, an afternoon that is so deeply a part of your being that you can't even conceive of your life without it? Perhaps four, five times more, perhaps not even that. How many more times will you watch the full moon rise? Perhaps 20. And yet it all seems limitless.”

Edit: thanks OP and you too, the shudders and waves of panic will last a long time, but it will get better, stay strong.

Edit 2: I woke up to gold?! Thank you kind stranger. X

Im British, I can confirm, we love tea at 2 in the afternoon.

EMDR and cognitive behavioural therapy, can't recommend them enough, I have suffered the ill effects of ptsd, EMDR saved my life. Good luck OP.