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Paranoid Schizophrenic here. I have had massive success treating myself with LSD in the past.

Do you have any research regarding the use of Acid with schizophrenia?

Would you like a research participant? I am prime for the job. I have hundreds of videos of myself in and out of psychosis. I keep a video journal I've never shared with anyone. That post is referencing the videos, though since then I still haven't decided whether to release them or not. I would be fine sharing them with researchers who I was involved with, however, as a way of establishing a baseline and history.

This is something I will pursue with or without your help, it would be great if I could get some advice from people who are more experienced.

Let me know! Thanks :)

Edit: Thanks alot for upvoting this NOW, brats :p

JK. Wish they had responded. Want more info on LSD therapy, I've only tried it once and plan to again soon.

Thank you so much for your reply. I have read only a couple things on LSD and schizophrenia, there really isn't much out there.

When trying to explain how I saw my LSD experience, I usually compare it to anti-psychotics. I have been on risperdal and ceroquel. While taking either of these, I had the impression that a part of my mind that had in the past been very valuable to me when it came to figuring things out, being creative, etc was being hindered. I felt I was being suppressed, though I admitted that suppressing this part of my mind resulted in fewer undesirable symptoms.

On LSD, I felt the area of my brain that I had found to be valuable for certain things, but could often help me get lost was being enhanced. It was no longer as easy to get lost, because I could follow thoughts that I realized I did deserve to be thinking to their conclusion, instead of losing myself in the complications of it all on the way there. That's one way to explain it.

Similar to how I often reject the idea that schizophrenics have tangeantial thinking. I often believe that they know exactly where they are going with a thought, but feel that details must be added in different locations to more properly pass an idea on.

If their listener had the time to listen to this speech technique, the schizophrenic who really took the time to follow each tangent, return, and complete the idea would actually have gotten across a very complex message, more so than usual. Yet they are often not capable of finishing these symphonies of thought, because of limitations to their memory, etc. It is hard to hold all these thoughts in place and keep them organized after a bit.

Acid helps with that process. It is for that reason that I believe acid actually helped me destroy many delusions. I feel I pushed past the delusions instead of suppressing myself to the point where I could not think in the way I was used to thinking in at all, and became docile and listless (and therefore symptom free in the eyes of psychiatrists).

Edit: I'll contact you about the account of experiences idea. That sounds interesting. Thank you again for your reply!

Edit2: Realized something I said in another comment may do a better job of explaining what I mean. This is a simple example of defeating a delusion by realizing where it was rooted. I have to admit the situations you must sometimes fight yourself out of often get more complex, but the overall concept helps get the point across.

I explained that the times I've gone to the ER with the belief that I was dying of some physical malady, I allowed that single, rather simple delusion (the firmly held belief that I was dying) to spiral into something much more complex.

I am never taken very seriously in the ER. I am always panicked, and frantically telling them about everything that is wrong with me. They tire of my questions very quickly, and usually just keep saying "no, you're fine" in response to what I believe are legitimate, immediate life threatening concerns. They laugh to each other as if they're office workers just trying to shoot the shit during a boring shift, as they wait for the benzo they just gave me to kick in.

I pick up on this, and begin to feel that my life is meaningless to them. I am dying, and they refuse to take things seriously.

So the delusion begins to spiral out of control:

I am dying>people don't seem to care that I am dying>people must want me to die>people hate me>if they want me to die, they probably want to kill me>since I've never met these ER folks before, and they seem to want me dead, that is pretty traumatizing, and I begin to assume anyone could want me dead, I can't predict who>I need to fight back if I'm going to survive>it just gets worse from here...

These are the kinds of things LSD helped me think through. I realized overall that my thoughts do not need to be taken as seriously as I thought they did (this has to do with the other thing I wrote in that comment, about mistakenly giving significance to things that don't require it, like what the person in the tv is saying, etc). By realizing that overall there could be many answers to a situation, I devalue initially terrifying delusions (like impending death). Damn this is hard to explain.

Exactly, which is what the comedian was trying to say.

"walks"

Can you feel the sex? Is it at all enjoyable for you? What would happen if you got pregnant?

Please, i hope i am not offending you. I am just very curious, and you seem very open about your situation and willing to share.

I have great respect for you.