phoenix0r

But... how do you find time to reddit??

What happened?

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I was a contestant on a local trivia show for high schoolers a while ago. I remember the host being kind of a dick off camera. I don't think they are happy people.

I have crushing social anxiety. Every time I make a mental decision to try and overcome it, somehow it gets washed away by pseudo misanthropy. In other words, my brains feels wired to first think "oh I'm so stressed by the thought of interacting with these people" and then immediately to "ehhh fuck them anyway, they're all a bunch of jerks." To be fair, I do meet a lot of jerks. It's only when I sit and feel lonely on a Friday night when I'm like, man I need to make some friends and I think maybe I should give more people a chance. Any suggestions on overcoming this thought pattern?