rhynox

Yes. I had a premie ( a premature baby) die on me, on Christmas day, while i was transporting him from the maternity to the hospital. There was just nothing i could do to save him, they caught the problem too late(he didn't have a diaphragma and his intestines migrated into his chest and compressed his lungs) and he was too small (900 grams) and too weak. I was devastated, i wasn't a real person for 2 months, just a zombie walking around. I was determined that if they made me transport another baby i would resign and start another job. Eventually i got over it.. I was young and not "dehumanized" like i am now, but even now children hold a special place, i always suffer for children, while adults do not move me almost at all anymore..

PS: i might inadvertently use too much information describing medical stuff.. sorry, professional defect

i see sick people as "cases". I don't get emotional about almost anything job related nowadays. i can eat a sandwich while 2 meters away behind a curtains some one is puking his his guts and blood out, and on the other side someone is dying and having CPR done. Or put the food down, go help, wash and come finish my meal. Children still hurt like hell tho. that i don't think i can ever get used to, especially since i have my own.

i have very little tolerance for hearing people's small ailments and minor hurts. I frequently make a bit of fun of them. "Oh you cut your little finger.. aww man i feel for you. Let me show you this picture of this guy who had both his legs amputated by a train after being electrocuted on the bridge above it and falling 7 meters" Otherwise i'd like to think i'm a pretty normal guy.

EDIT: might not have been to clear here. I am talking about off the job. like when some relative comes visiting my parents and keeps perstering me about his bad kneee etc. the post i replied to clearly states outside of work.

On the job, i will listen to your minor problem as patiently as i can and try to treat you as best i can. Doesn't mean i can't think you are a moron for coming to the ER at 2 in the morning with a couch that you had for 2 weeks.

number of victims, number of resources i have (doctors, nurses, paramedics, untrained help, police to contain the area or divert traffic), then triage and get dirty.. and we roll from there. Usually all this is takes place while i'm running "from the choppa"/ ambulance to the scene and the first victim.

more of a nuisance.