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He’s always very respectful and polite to me. I have a history of saying stupid things to him though so he makes me laugh in my memories. He always would randomly appear and I would be surprised by him so then when he asks a normal question like “hey man, what’s up?” I get flustered and reply with “good man, how are you” and feel dumb for the rest of the day. I’m not star struck, just stupid I think.

Thanks! I moved in with my dad and stepmom. My stepmom was a little mentally unstable as well (she later killed herself) so it was not exactly a good fit. I was grateful to have regular meals and a warm place to sleep though, for sure.

Bar fights aren’t ever really memorable to me, I guess just because in order to get that far into a situation you gotta be pretty drunk. One time I got hit with a bottle when I was in Thailand but the bottle didn’t break and it didn’t knock me out so I was just really surprised and in a lot of pain. I turned around expecting to see some other Marine that I had pissed off or a local dude that I had offended but instead I found myself looking down at a 90 lb girl who I had beat at connect four just a little bit before. She didn’t take that L very professionally.

I just always wanted to be more. I had nothing and I knew I wasn’t supposed to be nothing. I just kept clawing my way upwards. Sometimes I slid back down, sometimes I had to start over all over again. But I did it. I refused to stop trying to be good enough. Don’t delete it, unless you want to. I’m happy to hear you made it out of the shit.

Lol. Ya know what? Have some gold. Maybe it’ll cheer you up some.