VictimofGLaDOS

I find when I am public speaking in front of a large group, my anxiety has my internal monologue go off script and as I'm regurgitating the words I need to say, in my head I'm going "yeah you got em right where you want them. They are all focused on you... staring at you. Oh no, now your not sure what you just said."

I can't help it, doesn't happen every time but enough I get worried if I ever have to give a speech. It's so distracting, like putting a branch in the spokes of the bike I'm riding.

Any tips to get those anxious intrusive thoughts to subside?

When I had Myopericarditis I told my friends I should do an AMA while I was in the hospital. They all laughed. Now I see there was some sweet Karma to be had! Mine was outside my heart but my immune system brought my heart down to 40%. The chest pain was excruciating, got me on morphine shots whenever I needed, though had to inject into fat. So ouch. You getting similar wonderful drugs? Hows the pain?