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Were you sworn in on the bible or the quran?

Why don't we swear people in on the constitution, since that what you guys are supposed to uphold anyway?

ahh. the history behind that is cool. thanks.

hey op, I was just wondering if you're ever considered the possibility that you might have obsessive-compulsive disorder? I have OCD, and a lot of your thought patterns sound familiar. Spelling words forward and backward (weird thoughts and urges like that are 100% normal in the OC world... I also find a weird happiness from palindromes), feeling like you had HIV when you knew you didn't, extreme fear of spreading the virus to the point that you're becoming much less social because of it, feeling "unclean" pre and post diagnosis.... There's also a possibility that it could worsen with something as stressful as an HIV+ diagnosis. My ocd has always existed but wasn't terrible until I was raped.

Anyway, I hope this didn't come across as insulting or anything, and I'm clearly a random redditor, not a doctor, but it sounds like your mental health is getting worse, and you are worth getting help, working through your abuse, and having a fulfilling and vibrant life. You are not worth any less because you're in debt, positive, have been abused, or anything else. You are human just like the rest of us. hugs